Sinking….to Death…..†moon-phases-2016†/


… To Spread The Cement Of Brotherly Love And Affection, That Cement Which Unites Us Into One Sacred Band Or Society Of Brothers, Among Whom No Contention Should Ever Exist, But That Noble Emulation Of Who Can Best Work Or Best Agree …

My adopted father was from a family of Hydro Electric vocation men and masons.

More and more i get in touch with how my Father’s prayers and his participation in Masonic ritual as helped me build my own Path with the Grace of the Spirit, and the Foundational Wisdom of those who have gone before us…..

……mostly what i was aware of growing up was the Electric Bolts of Anger and Rage directed at  my person, when i did not live up to some Standard that i didn’t know or that did not sit in my own place of “truth”…..

That line about Brotherhood and “among whom contention should never exist” is a real denial trap…..

should is one of those dark words that i have worked very hard to remove from my speech, because it always takes me out of where I am at, and beating myself up because i ‘m not somewhere else “higher up” on the path of Evolution of Human Spirit……


(1) heated disagreement.
“the captured territory was one of the main areas of contention between the two countries”

synonyms: disagreement, dispute, disputation, argument, discord, conflict, friction, strife, dissension, disharmony
“a point of contention”

(2) an assertion, especially one maintained in argument.
“statistics bear out his contention that many runners are undertrained for this event”
synonyms: argument, claim, plea, submission, allegation, assertion, declaration; 


Okay….masons have a lot of honouring the Jesus path….did they miss the amount of Contention that Jesus’s Presence and Message evoked in those around him??

….Contention that manifested in his Beloved Disciples/FRIENDS and his Family as well as the Patriarchal Religious and Political Leaders of the day, challenged by the radical inclusiveness of LOVE rather than MERIT…..

In my parish experience, passionate feelings around Sacred Values were often triggered in Church meetings….and i’ve learned that at organizational levels, when there are Differences of Opinion or Perspective, the Spirit is trying to get us to ANTICIPATE a NEW WAY….not either/ or or Compromise….

Compromise……another word who’s wisdom has too often meant the parties involved :”accept standards that are lower than is desirable”….rather than seeking what Truths both parties can live with Happily  and thus with FULL ACCORD.

These words Challenge my Reality right now as i move through some Lenten GOING TO THE SHADOWY MEMORIES THAT SURFACE IN FASTING AND PENITENCE…….

Impressions impacted on a Cellular layer, that are still vibrating through my Physicality as well as Em0tional Heart memory, offering the opportunity to “Go THERE” to the void centre of the heart to uproot that which has been deeply embedded in my Body Consciousness……

I am healing with PTSD….and to be honest, i keep hoping this Spiritual Journey will provide me instantaneous deliverance from being TRIGGERED by those i am closest to and who have given me what has been required to live on this earth….wood for a wood stove and only source of winter heat….food and medicine when i haven’t had enough money to purchase my own….and that has been frequently.


Funny thing…..sorting piled papers to ‘get at’ income tax information…..

Come across the envelope an Artist friend sent me about her painting of The Loon Totem.  She had drawn  a loon floating Serenely on the front of envelope….and the STAMP…TITANIC 1912 – 2012

Year we were 60… some women’s circles i’ve heard that as the CRONE initiation year………

Year of the DRAGON…..

In the Realm of Spirit there is no Male or Female…..

In the Realm of HUMANITY….there are Specific PHYSICAL DNA GIFTS OF DIVINITY, that are important to the scheme of life upon this planet….

The City of Zion of St. John the Divine’s Revelations as THE EARTH GUARDIAN BRIDE……..

G~D longs to fully Dwell AMONG HUMANITY with the Crystal River, the redeemed BLOODY stained Martyrs, the Keys to Heaven and Hell, and the Tree with Leaves for the Healing of the Nations…….

What i have been learning is that the Greatest Compassion Western Civilization can give to the Sacred Feminine, is to embrace the reality that being FULLY human means that the Physiological DNA is the ground of LIVING WORD MADE FLESH within our ownselves……how the WORD TAKES FLESH in different embodiments is itself a Form of Spiritual YIN YANG nurture for the whole cosmic neural network……

Women’s BODY with the “physiological equipment” to HOUSE EVOLUTION of a zygote to CHILD requires a DIFFERENT WISDOM than the men’s Embodied Wisdom…

My athletic colonial mom, was the most YANG person in my life….and part of my own recovery has been to learn what being a YIN ~ WOMAN means…MAKING PEACE WITH WHAT HAS BEEN DESPISED AND TAUGHT THAT NEEDS TO BE “TRANSCENDED”rather than Honoured into Harmony….

then i remember this posting i made quite awhile ago……
Reflections On Scorpio’s Venus’ Rising

Submitted by Davita Lynne on Thu, 06/11/2015 – 16:57
It was a couple of years ago…beginning with the Solar Libra season, and the New Libra Moon…Venus was rising in Scorpio.

During this time i had a series of unwelcome sexual “overtures” and a bullying energy that occurred.

I love you. I’m Sorry. Please Forgive me. Thank you.

Invocating to Great Spirit to what in me was “inviting” these “apparent” “hits”.

i found myself in front of the Kabbalah Tree of Life…

….i know nothing of proper Kabbalah science and the mystic scriptures and commentaries for the TREE easily confound me…thus when invited to this kind of “interactive” symbol, i ask for it’s wisdom for the Abstract Challenged……

In this case i found myself looking at the Sefirots Gevurah and Chesed

that “appeared to me” like the Guardians of the Heart….

Looking at the Tree of Life

it “appeared” that


“Severeity”, “Contraction”, “Awe”,

was on the “Feminine” Left.

On the “Masculine” Right

was Chesed (Hesed),

“Compassion”, “Abundance”, “Grace”, “Love”.

Tiferet….which i understood as the Heart Chakra


Harmony, Mercy, Truth, “Beauty”

in the CENTRE.

There seemed “conflict” in the Masculine ~ Feminine “designations”…

as tho’ with Mars/Masculine “should be” Severeity,

The Divine Feminine as Venus, “should be” Compassion.

An illumination came, when i happened upon a video speaking of Genesis 1 and 2 as manifestations of these Sefirot and stories of Adam’s two wives. This was not included in my Biblical studies courses back in a “reformation” “protestant” seminary”.

Apparently, Genesis 1, Gevurah is associated with Adam’s First Wife, Lillith . She liked to take turns with Adam to be on Top…in all ways.

Adam wasn’t interested in a wife of independent spirit and he wanted a Companion in servitude to his VISION of creation’s care….not surprisingly conflict became a way of life for them.

Lillith, being the initiating kind of being she was, went into Sensual and Lust Filled Realms of Serpents, Dragons, Nagas, and Monsters of the Deep ….there She had children, and kept the underworld water beings happy with her Presence.

Genesis Chapter two, brings EVE as Chesed…and somehow the Rabbi, points out that Eve, as Created Help Mate from “man’s Side”, is the “Ideal Wife”…at home bringing in Paradise….

“Who would you like to have as your wife”, says the Rabbi…

“Lillith or Eve”??

mmmmm….what happens when a woman continually “Looks after others first”

and does not have a fair share in the Creating Paradise “Vision”…?

When the Eve of a person shuts the Door on Lillith……

How does she maintain her own VERTICAL CONNECTIONS of Sovereignty to the ONE,

in the midst of being the Family Soul Anchor?

Lillith, when we haven’t listened to her rumblings, usually shows her self as the Inner Bitch (1)…and the Inner Bitch is enlivened, when we do not look after the “feminine” places of our own heart and soul….and hold to the integrity of OUR OWN inner truth.

Janet Mentgen, one of Wholistic Nurses that created Healing Touch International,

built into her whole Healing Model the essential importance of SELF care…

to “DO THE MASTER’s WORK” in the every day….

her biggest teaching to me in getting 8 hours of PRONE time each night as a PRIORITY.

What i have learned, is that the “healing power that one cultivates” is the learning to care for one’s Inner Lillith in what she needs to thrive, and nourish her creative Force, and expression of SELF Sovereignty.

i’ve since lost the book called WomanChrist…a book of feminist “theology” radical in it’s day ….there was an article by Valerie Saving called the “Human Situation: A FEMININE VIEW”. Her main thesis was that “masculine” and “feminine” “SINS” are different…our bodies are different, and this has effect on our whole Embodied Wisdom.

“men’s” sins focused around “Pride” and “Unawareness of “OTHER’S” “need” SELFISHNESS”, while

“women’s sins”, were characterized by “diffusive giving and thinking”, as well the resistance to

disengage from her “tuning into others” radar to hear her own Truth.

Lillith, is the part of the Woman’s Psyche and the Male in his Anima that gets engaged in “unconscious” war tactics, when Self CARE has not been part of Compassionate Body – Emotional Mindfulness daily practice…and open hearted authenticity with oneself.

Basically, Lillith Rising in the Bitch of the Feminine, means that too much attention is going into “other people’s agendas, appearances and Looking good” and INNER SACRED SPACE in SOLITUDE is the Answer….following Lillith and having a talk with all those serpents seething in our Nether parts….

What emerged for me from these meditations was a Body Prayer.

My left hand beginning at my left thigh and pushing outward…

with the Sound Gevurah.

As i followed this inspiration, i experienced “creating” ENERGETIC Space

required to function in an optimum way….

and a clearing of my “pelvis” as to “what i was cradling” not for highest good.

…. so all that is AUTHENTICALLY, Good, True, and Beautiful,

may Fill the Space.

Then…my right hand, extended arms length to the Right

….seemed to “GATHER” all the etheric threads of Life,

and in a slow cupping motion bring them into my heart

as “Tiferet”

with the Sound VAV.

With this came the awareness,

that i don’t need to “send any energy out to anybody or anything”…

ALL that is LOVED and LIFE exists right in the Centre of the Heart.

It has surfaced to my attention that it is these

Guardian Sefirot, Gevurah and Chesed

Carolyn Myss perceives at THROAT CHAKRA…..

the Gates that need “Aquaintance”,

that We Might give SYNTHETIC EXPRESSION to Tiferet.

The Sacrament of Confession is now perceived in THEOLOGICAL CIRCLES from the perspective of the Sacrament of RECONCILIATION…something that requires inner active Peacemaking as well as verbalization of falling Short of Expressing the Glory of G~D.

“Sefirot/Sacrament connection. The fifth chakra corresponds o the Sefirah of Hesed, representing the love or mercy of God, and of Gevurah, representing the judgement of God. These two sefirot are the right and left arms of God, portraying the balanced nature of Divine will. The implication of these sefirot is that the Divine is merciful, and that only God has the right to judge the choices we make. The Sefirah of the Hesed reminds us to use loving words to communicate with others, and the sefirah of Gevurah reminds us to speak with honor and integrity. The sacrament of Confession is aligned to the fifth chakra, symbolic of the fact that we are all accountable for the way we use our willpower. Through the sacrament of Confession, we are given an opportunity to retrieve our spirits from the “negative missions” we may have sent them on as a consequence of our negative thoughts or actions.

….Understanding the energy consequences of our thoughts and beliefs, as well as our actions, may force us to become honest to a new degree. …Genuine, complete healing requires honesty with oneself. An inability to be honest obstructs healing as seriously as the inability to forgive. Honesty and forgiveness retrieve or energy–our spirits–from the energy dimension of “the past” Our fifth chakra and it’s spiritual lessons show us that personal power lies in our thoughts and attitudes.” (2)

These two Seferiot seem to be lighting up in the Alta Major/Baleen Chakras…as the healing of the XX chromosone nature of DNA in the Centre of what we call Humanity…

Tiferet…..YOKE OF CHRIST and the Clasp of “Mary’s” “Mantle”

in the INNER RECONCILIATION of Yin and Yang…the Holy Mother and Holy Father of our Humanity.

to the Glory of the Synthetic ONE.



(2) Myss, Carolyn, “Anatomy of the Spirit”, Three Rivers Press, Random House, New York, New York., (c.)1996, p.220, 221.  bold and italics my emphasis.


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